OK, going to get a little sappy and sentimental for this post... because I can. Because I am so thankful.
This Christmas I am especially thankful. For years in the past Christmas was always a bitter sweet holiday. Dan and I both found ourselves wishing and day dreaming about what it would be like to have kids and do the special things we do at Christmas with them. To be honest, when we started our adoption journey, we both honestly did not think we would have been matched or even have a child at Christmas. I think we were both mentally preparing for another year... of just us. However, as we have learned through our marriage, God ALWAYS is in control and ALWAYS loves us and knows our hearts desires.
Well, in August he gave us our hearts desire plus. This year I am so blessed. This year, Dan and I get to start "family" traditions and we aren't missing any opportunities.
I am so thankful for a God that loves us and blesses in ways we could never imagine or dream. This Christmas as I decorated our house. It was so much fun. It was fun because we had a little guy that I was doing it for. HE LOVES LIGHTS. However, I think it finally hit me that we really were a family when this came in the mail.
I know you might be thinking that is silly, but honestly, there were times when I never thought I would see this in my house. It is the most beautiful thing. Something I cherish and smile every time I look at it. It says to me
FAMILY
So as I decorate our home this year I think about how God sent his son to earth for me. He gave us what was most precious to him. I also think about Colton's birth mom and what a loving sacrifice she made so that we could be a family. There are no words or things I could do to ever express my gratitude to her.
I have been so lucky to be able to be home with our little guy. I am savoring the last month and a half left before I go back to reality. I am loving all the toys, messes and lack of sleep because it means something... it means we have a son. Don't get me wrong there are days that are long and days when we wonder what the heck we are doing, but then I look at his face with that great big smile and all is right in the world.
I hope that during this busy time of year, you have a moment to reflect on what Christmas really is all about.
Merry Christmas from a grateful heart.